Boundless Souls

I have lost a child. In her honor and in order to help others in similar situations, I have started this blog to share our journey. I hope you find comfort in my story as I find comfort in writing it. At Week:18 of my second pregnancy, the doctor ordered…

I arrived at the hospital at around 5am in the morning for my scheduled c-section. They had to pull her out at 37 ½ weeks because the doctors didn’t want me to go into labor. They wanted to prepare for her arrival and they did. Her birth was planned, organized,…

We decided to baptize her while she was at the hospital. You see, deep down I knew she would notmake it. At a point I thought, “Am I jinxing her for baptizing her in the hospital?” We decided to goahead with it. The hospital’s chaplain brought us a beautiful small…

The doctor who had performed the original surgery to correct the hypoplastic left heart syndrome Millie was born with was called once more the day she died. This time it was to seal her closed. Her chest had been open after the surgery because her heart was so swollen. It…

Her other organs stopped functioning the night before she passed away. It was only a matter of hours. The nurses and doctors allowed me to carry her for the last time. I sat on a recliner chair they brought in for me. It took three nurses to move Millie along…

February 17th 2020 was the day of Millie’s services. I asked everyone to wear yellow or white. Yellow because it was supposed to be a good luck color and white because that’s the stereotypical color of angels.  I didn’t want anyone to come. I didn’t want people to see me…

We left the hospital at about noon. It was a beautiful day. The sun was shining bright upon us as we drove away. I was devastated yet also very relieved. It was finally over. The agony was over. The unknown was over. I think this was what troubled me the…

First, I just want to say that I started writing this article in March of 2022. I couldn’t find myself to finish it. This is probably one of the most angerering memories during Millie’s journey… as you will now read: Millie had several specialists monitoring her 24/7. Her doctor that performed the…